So uh..Thoughts.

A lot of things have changed in the past months. A lot of things to look forward to and that I’m scared of.

Truth is. I’m scared of failing. I’m scared to get out into the world n just yea.

Everyday I have to think of this. on top of what is happening that day and I’ve got a lot of worries and pressures. It’s hard. for me. To have all these thoughts built up.

And all those worries and pressures make me more scared n worried to the point where I wish I could just go back to when things were easy in high school. where my biggest problem was some hoe in school giving me trouble.

Now I have to worry about jobs, college, my license, a car, etc.

And that’s just my personal thoughts. but now I have newer ones cuz I’ve got a special person in my life now. not bf yet. but soon will be. my as well be. I’m just really scared cuz this person has the power to take me out of the comfort of my home n out in the real world. I want to but I can’t help but be terrified. I know he’d be there for me n always support me n care for me. but I still can’t help but be absolutely scared.

So now that I’ve got new worries n fears. my new ones r effected by my personal ones so that makes more worries n fears.. then I worry bout my worries n fears.. I worry about my mental status n if I can even handle it. I don’t wanna break down n I don’t wanna fail. I don’t wanna disappoint anyone or lose anyone. I’m so worn out and exhausted by my own mind that I feel like I have to cry just to make myself feel better.

I just wanna shut my brain down for a couple days.. go into a huge slumber.. then wake up with a new view n a positive attitude n mind set to make me fearless, ready to conquer all my worries, pressures, n fears.

Or another dog..

-pushes Fang-
Oops.

-pushes Fang-

Oops.

(Source: amyvictoriax)

Omg. Id kill for this….

(via laepicamagster)

^_^

I get to hang out with someone awesome today ~<3

マギー: Bold What Applies To You

I am a cuddler.
I am a morning person. (sometimes)
I am an only child.
I am currently in my pajamas.
I am currently pregnant.
I am left handed. 
I am a little shy around the opposite gender at first.
I bite my nails. (Only when their not painted)
I can be paranoid at times.
I enjoy country music.
I enjoy smoothies.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I have a car. 
I have/had a hard time paying attention at school.
I have a hidden talent.
I have a pet.
I have a tendency to fall for the “wrong” guy/girl. 
I have all my grandparents.
I have been to another country. 
I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor.
I have or had broken a bone.
I have caller I.D. on my phone.
I have bathed someone.
I have changed a diaper.
I have changed a lot over the past year.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have had major/minor surgery.
I have killed another person.
I have had my hair cut within the last week.
I have mood swings.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I have rejected someone before. 
I like the taste of blood.
I love Michael Jackson.
I love sleeping.
I love to shop. 
I own 100 CDs or more.
I own and use a library card.
I read books for pleasure in my spare time.
I sleep a lot during the day.
I strongly dislike math. 
I was born in a country other than the UK. 
I watch soap operas on a regular basis.
I work at a job that I enjoy.
I would classify myself as ghetto.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. 
I am currently wearing socks.
I am tired.
I love to paint/draw/sketch/sculpt.
I consume at least one alcoholic drink every month.

I have/had:
Graduated high school. 
Smoked cigarettes.
Rode every ride at an amusement park.
Collected something really stupid. 
Gone to a concert.
Helped someone.
Spun turn tables.
Watched four movies in one night.
Been dumped. (once.)
Taken a college level course. 
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced.
Your parents are getting divorced
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over $200 in one day.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter.
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.

Skipped school.
Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library.  
Been in a mental hospital.
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.
Fired a gun.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.

Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Attempted suicide.
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.

Loved someone you shouldn’t have. 
Used a coloring book over age 12.
Had surgery.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Had more than 5 online conversations going at once.
Had a hamster.

Dyed your hair.
Had something pierced.

Got straight A’s.
Your parents sent you to a shrink.
Been handcuffed.

My hair is naturally the color:
Light brown
Medium brown
Dark brown
Blonde
Black
Dirty blonde
Strawberry blonde/Ginger

My eyes are:
Brown
Blue
Green
Grey
Hazel 
Light brown
A combination of things

I am a:
Male
Female 

People sometimes label me as ___, .
Slut
Girly 
Ugly
Nerd
Other

My longest relationship was ___. (including on and off relationships)
1 month or less
2 months
3 months
4 months
5 months
6 months
7 months 
8 months
9 months
10 months
11 months
A year (alittle over a year tho)
Two years or more
I’ve never been in a real relationship.

Some of my biggest fears are ___.
Spiders/other insects
Dying 
Doctor/dentist appointments
Hospitals
Needles
Disease
Being alone in the dark
Heights
Small spaces
Oceans/large bodies of water
Holes
Large animals
Small animals
Dying young
Open spaces

I have ___.
A friend with benefits (kindaaa atm)
A laptop in my room
A television in my room 
Good grades 
My own car 
Married parents

-takes finger-

-takes finger-

(Source: nikolawashere, via inksymbols)

Bah

Can’t sleep.

I need a new bed.

With new pillows.

New blankets.

More dogs.

n Perhaps another person.

Def more dogs tho.

Gahhh. That looks so comfy&#8230;.

Gahhh. That looks so comfy….

(Source: dead-lemons, via lookfuckingalive)

Fuck yeah.

Fuck yeah.

(Source: psych-facts)